Things have been really awesome. Alex and jordan just got to town and its real nice. And these 5 kids that travel are staying at my house and they are really awesome. We busked yesterday and made 135 dollars and we made like 60 bucks the day before. Some lady gave us a cart full of groceries. Its been pretty fun. So we've been getting drunk and high and fed for free.

I think I found a new roomate and his name is echo and he's pretty sweet and might be able to help alex get jobs.

We all rolled last night and it was the first time I've been that fucked up in a wile. So I was kinda in a bad place for a little bit and I cuddled with a pillow for a wile. But then I snapped out of it and it was really fun.

These are one of my favorite groups of kids that have come into savannah. For the simple fact that they are all fucking rad and they have cleaned my house everyday.

They have a dog with herpes I didn't know dogs could get them.


All in all things are looking up. I miss all my friends though. They all won't be back until january. But I like how I've been home a lot recently.

Kitten is my new bff. He's gotten so big and now he's chilled out so much. I love our house and our animals. I'm a little down sometimes but I'm really actually happy.

im a sad sad clam.


im so fucked with money. this is a huge problem.


i also feel like no one loves me. not even a boy. just anyone.

buhhhhhhhhh feelings stop happening.


they need to stop


i have to many of them

my hair has officially dreaded it self. i need help pulling some of it apart. its getting kinda nappy in some areas but like a lot of the waves/curls have separated into little dreads. i like ti i just dont want all my hair to be doin that shit.


i wish that the fest was happening durring a different weekend cause i want everyone from here to be chillen when alex is here.

mike tunis is visiting next weekend!! so pumped.

i wish more people would like pool some moneys together to come party down souf cause we have a blast down here.


i got a bike!!! its great instead of it taking me like 30-40 mins to walk to work it takes me like 10 minutes to get here! amazing right.



oh yeah jesus....


lastnight i was at the ponypen and people were all passing out and alec text me bein all like yo girl whatchu doin and i was like well i still gots some 40 left so i rode over to section 8 to chill for a bit and what do you know fucking peyton is sitting there doing lines with them.

im like oh thanks guys for telling me that he was here..

like i havent talked to him since he left and told me to not contact him cause he was gonna talk to his ex and he was sorry for putting me through shit but he had to figure stuff out.


so i walk in and hes there and im listening to people give him advice on how to win her trust back. im like oh cool cool. thats just great.


but i mean i got over it cause im not retarded. but still like wow.

so i text him today and i was just like hey i dont want you or your dick any more so why dont you go back to treating me like the badass chick you met before shit got wack.

cause he like wouldnt even look at me.



its one thing if you found something else you want you know, but like just treat me like a normal person. dont be a pussy. my eyes arent going to burn yours.

so full if pissed off recently.

but also very happy.

you know i am way more happy here than in frederick. i need to be thankful for this cause i forget how depressed i really was when i was there.


im soo hungry all the time. but i have no food or money. im such a bum i really sucks. but thats what i get for paying an ass load of rent.

this really sucks. my paycheck wasnt even 200 dollars. how am i spossed to pay rent. how am i spossed to pay my phone bill. how am i spossed to pay my electric and water and eat. well i cant.

it sucks when you get fucked over so badly and your supporting people. im really fucking scared and i dont know how to fix this.



thank you universe.

thanks for that awesome fucking facebook message you asshole. how mature.

I also just found out that one of my friends died.

Her name was franchesca and she rode my bus and lived down the street from me. Like I wasn't real close but we always had a different friendship ouside of school. She still has my first 35 mm camera from photo one. And I did her hair and make up for prom one year. And we always talked about doing different drugs that lots of her friend didn't know about.

I just can't believe she shot her self in the head. That's the saddest thing in the world to me. I probably sound like everyone saying that o wish I could have helped her in some way. Like hey dude I know how your family is and mines fucked too let's smoke a bowl or something...

I don't know, that just fucking breaks my heart. She seemed so happy go lucky most of the time. She fucking lived like 5 houses down from me all through highschool.

Just fucking sad and unexpected.

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so ive been chillenw ith zoe a lot lately. thats been a lots of fun. its good to feel like someone has my back.


friggin i went to patomic with dan and alecks and we stayed at jakes from braceface mini punks house. we had so much fun. we went to look at zebras that were hidden in this fence out in the woods and then we rode bikes to the grocery store and made dinner. then we stayed up and watched pete and pete.


the next mornin we awoke and chilled then made pizza.

i like those 3 a lot. it kinda felt like a little family. we all just joked around and took pictures... and larry. his dog. ooof soooo cute and lovable.


any way im pretty happy i guess.


i miss you jordan romero!! and im a little upset cause i feel like you arent going to ever leave and it makes me a whole lot of sad. any way write me more it makes me real happy.





i miss you rodchester kids!! come chill with me.



i need to not be so god damned lazy and post the whole bunch of pictures i have on my camera. any way. a huge cut will be a commin soon. love yall!

this weekend was so fucking fun.

i spent most of my time with jordan tina and alex.
i went to jordans house to chill with him before he left and e gave me most of his records. and some clothes and stuff. and then filled my ipod with so much shit i had asked for.


we rode the huge ford f150 to cumberland and jordan drove it all the way home and then to baltimore so we could chill with brittany and mike. i had a lot of fun there with them. i hope to go back soon.

last night was steven's birthday party. before much went down he drove the truck once again to his house. i cried silently on the way there and then when we were saying goodbye i lost it. everyones just like ohh yeah he's coming back no big deal. but i don't know i've just realized i'm done being in frederick. i need to go do somthing with my life. and i think hes gonna have so much fun with willy but i'm so sad cause i feel like i'm loosing a part of myself.

i'm just so lost. i'm gonna miss him so much.

then we go back to that party and someone decides to spend half their own party foolin around upstairs with some girl who is really weirding me out. then he comes down and makes me feel all weird and even more sad after i already had cried so much. he apologized for the last year and told me that it was him being passive agressive and he felt so shitty about it. i hope he wasnt just saying that cause he was drunk

i slept next to him and when i woke up i cried again.

yeah cry a lot lately.

well so im pretty happy. things are good. i dont want jordan to leave. i think that will kill me the most for the summer


umm my friend paul and i are workin somthing out and ima be good. like for real this time.



taking stateboards tomorrow for cosmetology. im so nervous. this is gonna decide my life!!!



i really hope i get this job at sheets though cause i need money and i really am trying to move out so soonn.



christy and madison rad place bouta happen hopefully.


uhh i have a new feeling inside with butterflies involved